Personal Changes in 2018
If you’ve been around here for any length of time, you know that I’m a pretty private person. Don’t get me wrong — I stay very authentic and genuine with everything I share here. But I have definite boundaries on what I will share and what I won’t share. Plus, I’m by nature an introvert.
When life changes are happening (either good or bad), I tend to keep them close to my chest — sacred and private. I like to give myself time to process and deal with things, before sharing with the world. And then I will only share my perspective, without involving other characters. I’ve chosen to open myself up online; others around me haven’t necessarily made that choice, and I will always respect their wishes and privacy.
Having said all that…
In May, with an eleven month old baby, I became a single mother.
I can’t say that I was blindsided by this nor that it was a total shock. However, I can say that I always held out hope that things would work out differently. I will refrain from saying anything further about the situation. Suffice it to say this is not a path I would have chosen, nor is it a role I ever dreamed of having. Trust me, the whole ordeal was very heart-wrenching and traumatic to put it mildly.
So, Elle and I moved into a new home, and we’ve endeavored to embrace our new normal. And believe me — it is (and will be!) a very beautiful life. She brings such joy to me every single day.
But I basically was a hot mess for most of 2018! Over the years, I’ve learned that when stressful times occur, I tend to prioritize what must get done – and then everything else falls by the wayside.
And that’s pretty much how 2018 played out for me. As I told friends and family and colleagues, I had three and only three priorities: (1) work hard to provide a good life for my daughter and me, (2) take care of myself, and (3) take care of her. Pretty much anything beyond that didn’t get done. I simply didn’t have the emotional energy to do much beyond that.
My team rallied around me, and I’m so grateful for that! We had our best year yet here at CarrieColbert.com – which is great, because the pressure to support my little family from this website is real!
Once we finished all of our holiday-related projects and met those deadlines, I instructed my team to take time off from work. I didn’t want anyone working. I wanted them spending time with their families. And I did the same!
It’s no exaggeration when I tell you: every part of my being was exhausted.
I needed a break… I needed that time off. I needed to reflect. I needed to relax. I needed to refuel. I needed to recharge. I needed some refreshment.